Aaron Fan

mood: enthralled

I'VE OFFICIALLY MOVED.
http://www.xanga.com/withaaron

mood: excited

I don't know what's wrong with me this term. In less than a month, i've already been late 3 times!

I hate doing detention after school! It's really a waste of time! Especially when you have to copy the whole section on:

"School Rules & Consequences".

Seriously, who gives a damn? It's not like we're going to follow them anyway.

I won't mind if we're to do our own revision for 2 hours. At least, it's MUCH more efficient.

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How do you guys, keep yourselves away from distractions at home?

For me, computer is my ultimate distraction. With it at home, i won't be able to start revision.

Even though i know 'O' levels are nearing, i just won't get started.

Thus, i have to be out. Because, studying will be much easier due to lesser distractions.

But i can't possibly be out everyday right?! Parents don't always trust their kids right?

This is really a big issue for me. I'll pray to Him for help.

Anyway, my Chinese Listening Comprehension is tomorrow!!

Please keep me in prayer.

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Yesterdays' service at Heart Of God Church was simply, great & strong! I was really into the sermon. Loved it.

I will definitely apply what i've learnt, into my life & be closer to Him.

Anything's possible with God. Amen!

mood: sick

 
I'm having SORE THROAT, FLU, & COUGH!

This sucks! The most irritating illness is having a sore throat.

Yesterday, i was out studying, & i had to restrict myself to all the fried & yummy food!

Drank honey water: Didn't work.

Drank coke with 4 packets of salt: Didn't work.

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Stayed over at Heng Shoon's house with Nadirah.

& I HURT MY TAILBONE!

Apparently, i tried to blade, & i fell & hit on my tailbone.

It freaking hurts! When i walk, sit, bend, climb up the stairs, it HURTS.

I'll just pray that it will heal faster, cause i'm struggling to sit & stand.

I heard from Heng Shoon that if your tailbone is damaged, you will be paralysed forever?

Hmm.. Thank God for preserving me.

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At night, we watched:

The movie was quite boring. Very very slow, & very few speech.

Oh anyway, you must be wondering,

"What's the picture above I am Legend?!"

It's actually, a game we played... ahh, never mind, it's hard to explain.

Mainly, it's just to relieve "stress".

Had lots of fun & laughters throughout the whole night. Did some really silly stuff.

It's like, we're drunk, but we're not. Okay, never mind, forget it.

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I gave my church a miss today.

I was too tired. I slept for 3 hours only.

But i will be going to Shan Rong's church later.

mood: bouncy

I know i have colour deficiency, but at least, i tried!

mood: calm

The sudden urge of reading Tetra IV & SYF entries, struck me.

I know it's really random, especially when i'm supposed to be concentrating on my studies!!

Currently, i've read a few, & the flashbacks, were just.... nice.

However, at the same time, i felt frustrated.

It's like a "heavy" feeling. It almost seem like i got to shout it out.

OKAY, nevermind! I'm still GLAD that i experienced both though.

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Hooray! I've been reading the Bible everyday, since last week!

Last time, i would always have the mindset of "Aiya, tomorrow la!", & that "tomorrow" seldom came.

So, this is counted as an achievement! Just hope that i can be apply this into my studies.

Will be praying to Him to guide me through this.

mood: confused

 
Yesterday was the band's picnic at ECP.

The walking distance from Macs' to the other end was really long & tiring.

Cycled & chatted for an hour or so, before heading to Heng Shoon's house to study.

Ok... "STUDY".

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The graduating batch had assembly on Direct Poly Admission today.

I'm glad to know that Prelims won't be part of the DPA exercise!!

However, one thing is, in my application, i've got to fill up 3 courses that i'm interested in.

Not only do i NOT have an idea of what i want, i have to think 3 courses!

The only thing i know, a Business-related course is definitely where i would want to go.

So should i apply or not?

What if i chose something i didn't like, & got in?

There's still a chance, although its 2.5% right?

Anyways, if i am, i'm going to apply for Temasek Polytechnic.

Reasons:


1) 30 minutes bus ride from home.


2) New buildings.


3) Most of my friends are there.

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Shutter... is not scary at all!!

Haha, i guess the main reason was because, i watched it in the afternoon?
I tried "creating" the dark atmosphere by closing the curtains & doors though.

Maybe i'll try watching it during the night.

But the most hilarious part of the show was the end.

When the girl was sitting on his neck.

The position was just... hilarious!

mood: excited

 
FINALLY.

After 1 year, i finally found a place which rents "Shutter" out!

I'm sooo excited!!! Going to catch it tomorrow, with some friends.

I heard it's the scariest movie ever, & those who aren't afraid of horror movies, will freak out while watching this!

Like my brother, & he watched it during the day.

The date due is next saturday, so if anyone want to watch, just ask.

mood: cheerful

MY CHINESE ORAL IS ON THURSDAY, & I'M 4TH TO GO!

Seriously, it's UNFAIR! Why does the weaker classes always go first?!

We are the ones who need more time!!

During English, Mdm.Rogayah said we're the first batch for English orals.

She herself was like, "What the hell?!!", & we've got two invigilators from Anglican High!

We were told about the past years topics, & i was like ****!


2004; Running

2005; Animals - Tigers

2006; Oceans - Whales

2007; Astronomy - Astrologers


Yes, "Running" is easy, but "Tigers", "Whales" & "Astrologers" ?!

How much can you talk about tigers or whales?  

& don't even get to Astronomy.

It's like a pattern, the topics get harder each year.

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Had Chemistry tuition just now.

Teacher was quite slack, but at least i LEARNED something.

Found out that she's Miss.Mok's sister. Anyone taught by Miss.Mok before?

Anyways, I've decided to skip tomorrow's Youth Carnival... to STUDY!

Yes, that's what i'm going to do.

mood: sleepy

Just found the pictures from Amelia! - My brothers' return.

& YES! That's my Brother. He still doesn't look mature for his age though. Hah! & he lost 3.5kg!!

Most of my friends who had seen him, said we don't look alike.

Even the aunties & uncles thought we're friends! I bet you guys think so too.

Maybe it's just the SIZEEE.

Anyways, my cell, planned a surprise for him on Friday!

My mom & i was supposed to pretend nobody's home, while the others went into the room & hide, when he's on his way back.

So when he reached, the first thing he did, was he took off his uniform top! My mom was like shouting "suspiciously", not to take it off.

"Oi! Oi! Bu Yao Tuo Diao La!!"

I was laughing very loudly then, but he didn't get suspicious.

So yeah, my brother was half-naked when he opened the door.

& according to Peishi, his facial expression was PRICELESS.

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Today's the first day of school!

The teachers were wasting our time talking crap most of the time, instead of teaching.

Especially Mr.Te. I can't stand him!

He's freaking lame, he talks things that are unnecessary & he teaches us so slowly like we're some of low-class Pariahs.

Thought of going band today, but decided not to, cause 'O' levels are coming, & i'm super tired.

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I've made a private blog! I'm using blogger this time.

Took me quite long to decide to make one; i was still hesitating after i posted about the idea.

Currently, i've not invited much readers. Around 5 or 6?

I'll most probably invite a few more today. Trusted ones of course.

mood: sleepy

Everything is over!

The outcome of it was really satisfying! Although it was really tiring, it was worth it.

Rushed the board until 3am yesterday. Luckily Fauzi was there to fetch us back. THANKS. 

I'm currently super shagged, cause i had only 4 hours of sleep.

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I've been thinking about making a semi-private blogger account to release my frustrations.

I feel really restricted here in LJ, cause the journal can't be password-protected.

I know, my post can be set to a higher security level, but i need some or more listening ears! & most of my friends don't use LJ, so they can't view my friends-only posts.

Since the blogger will be semi-private to friends, i won't feel restricted to say anything or be indirect.

I'll still be blogging here frequently, however, it won't be that detailed when i'm feeling down or angry. 

So, when the blogger is up, i'll start inviting friends, to let them gain access!

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mood: irritated

Why do some people love to seek attention?

Are these people born like that? Or are they deprived from love at home?

Seriously, attention seekers urks me & some revolve around me.

They use means & ways to get closer to the person they picked.

Example :

1) Change personality.

2) Gaining sympathy.

3) Money.

Why are they so dumb, to think that nobody notices them?

Why do they get emotional in front of people on purpose?

Of all places, they do it in front of people whom they want attention from & worst still, crowded places. 

They act as if they hurt alot inside, but actually, their the problem.

What do they gain? Is that how they define "fun"?

I DETEST ATTENTION SEEKERS.

To "Belly Drum" : 
 
Words cannot describe how much hate i have for you. Since day 1, you've already got a motive. That is, to be better. I can't stand it when you always think you've won & try to show others, that you're more capable. Having that much power before, you were definitely NOT a role model. Many may think you were, because you cover up well. Many may also think you're innocent & sensitive, cause they don't observe your actions, but hear how "hurt" you were. The fact is, you're just a lump of shit.

You indirectly tell people how involved you are. You don't care what people say, you use ways to gain sympathy openly. You want to have friends that will benefit you, so within a few days, you thought you've made a new best friend. You don't give a heck about others, but only care about yourself.

You're no doubt, the worst person i've ever met. For 4 years, i have been putting on a fake smile to face you. You have been a burden to me. I find ways to try to solve YOU. Yes, you're a problem. However, nothing seems to work, because you have too much ego inside. I guess, it's your nature. Cause even up till now, you're still trying to gain sympathy.

Well done.

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I've received an email from Jason a few days back, it's about our health & which type food increases our cancer risk.

So, i hope these will benefit you guys.

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Anyway... here's another!

mood: restless

I think i'm getting too used to staying up late.

Having tuition later at 10, & with the amount of sleep, it's surely going to be a wasted session.

This week is seriously not a "holiday" as i mentioned.

I'm practically having tuition everyday! Poa, Math, Chinese... YES, Chinese!! I have to secure my oral and listening; i'm so weak at both.

My upcoming 'O' level mother tongue is definitely going to be a killer.

1. I CANNOT recognise Chinese characters.

2. I CANNOT speak fluent Chinese.

3. I CANNOT read a Chinese passage with expressions.

Therefore, i tend to shiver & my hands will start trembling & then my paper & then my VOICE!

Thinking about it, makes my heart beat faster.

& damn, my class will be the first one to go! The first ones always get the hardest right?

Great.

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Changed my layout today. Felt my previous one, was too common among the Live Journal users.

Took me such a long time to choose this, cause most layouts are practically crap.

Anyways, Bro's going be back this Friday, from NS.

The youths will be having cell at my place. It's going to be a surprise for him!

Can't wait to see his facial expression, when everyone's staring at his bald head!

mood: content

Happy Fathers' Day! 

Celebrated Fathers' Day in church today.

Overall, it was great! Everything went smoothly & the performances were very entertaining. Love it. 

Although i screwed up some parts during while performing, i was glad that it was over and quite successful.

Can't wait to watch the video!

However, when Caline was giving her testimony, i felt frustrated and quite pissed with the adults; they. have. no. manners!!

While she was giving her speech, the adults had the cheek to talk so LOUDLY among themselves, like she was non-existent.

Worst still, they continued eating with their backs facing her.

HOW RUDE IS THAT?!

Although we are are younger, doesn't mean respect is not needed from them!

I felt quite ashamed that the adults were actually behaving more immaturely than us.

Anyways, i love Joan's voice! Too bad Jasmine left early, if not, it would have been a great duet.

Not forgetting the Fathers' performances. It was the bomb man! I laughed so much, that if you saw me, you'd thought i've taken drugs.

Hah...

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Remedials again tomorrow! Can you believe it?!?! Out of 4 weeks, i have 3 weeks of remedial! Ain't that sad?

Have not really been studying again these few days. The mood just left after staying over at HengShoon's house. 

All i did was slack, slack & slack!

So to make up for it, i'm going to study everyday this week! Hmm... actually not, cause i will be really "busy" during the weekends.  

!! i better get some rest, or i will be missing tomorrow's remedial again!

mood: annoyed

What a tiring week!! Have been sleeping really late & waking up super early!

Yesterday, mugged at the airport with some band people.

Didn't really study much, cause i was helping Hengshoon to arrange his notes & i didn't know where to start.

Went over to Hengshoon's house to mug, & stayed over with the rest. Pure slacking.

Woke up at 10am, & rushed to church with Vanessa, to rehearse for Sunday.

I was really pissed off during the rehearsal. Nothing worked out, and the people were just so dead. It's like conflicts and more conflicts!

Rather than trying to solve it, it gets worse.

Luckily, i didn't flare up, cause i thought of the consequences. & i certainly didn't want to add on to the present mess.

Peishi and I were like struggling to get the songs right, and people were just not co-operating. Ask questions, keep quiet. It really gets on my nerves! 

FREAK IT! 

Rehearsal is already that bad, but they just had to create a dead atmosphere.

Why bring their personal problems into this? Afterall, the performance is FOR the church.

I thought of switching to another church many times. I really can't take it. 

Now, it's really empty and not like before. I get really tired & sad seeing people ignoring each other. I seriously miss the times in year 2007.

I feel like it's starting to become a chore to go for rehearsals.

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I just changed my song! Specially for the upcoming Fathers' Day, but the box doesn't seem to be showing!  Or is it my computer? Hmm..

mood: satisfied

1 CHAPTER FOR CHEMISTRY DOWN!!

mood: blah

I finally trained on my bari today, after 3 months!

Actually, during the camp i played, but that isn't counted, cause i whacked on any score i saw, & i sounded like crap. 

I was really happy, that i improved since camp!

Was really worried about how much time i needed to gain back my skills before today.

Actually, it's quite fast. Although not as good as before, at least i sound decent!

Symphonic Band Technique Book helps! 

Also, for the past few days, i have not been really studying, until today! 

It's only when i calculated, that i'm only left with 4 more months! That's so little time! Ahhh...

Aaron, time to buck up!!!

However, till now, i still do not know which course suits me best. Nothing seems to interest me, but music.

But i know, it's really hard to earn a living in music, especially when there are so many better players out there. So, i gave up on that idea last year.
*I seriously need to figure out what course suits me, so that i can work towards it, & have the motivation, to study!!!!!!

I'll continue praying for Him to guide me through this.

mood: relieved

Something struck me, while i was having my quiet time.

There's this verse in the bible that says, "With strong faith, you can ask the mountain to move, and it will".

I was really glad, that i found an answer to the problems i face in life; friends, studies & recently, band. & the answer was, to BELIEVE in Him.

So during my cell just now, i wrote down:

My challenge: Be a better saxophonist.
My desire: Good grades for 'O' level.

I was always uncertain, to get what i want, & didn't challenge myself to anything.

But now, i am certain and confident, cause i believe, these, will be accomplished.

"Always be spiritually prepared, cause GOD has amazing things for you"

mood: energetic

BYE BYE BATON!

mood: impressed

Two days back, some band mates and i went on a tour on fauzi's car!

It was freakin' awesome. Went to places like Changi to see those aquas, and Old Changi Hospital, in the middle of the damn night! Totally freaked us out.

Anyway, this post is going to be very short. Just like that, it ends. Bye!

Sorry for the blurness though, it was taken during the ride.

mood: excited

 AWAY FOR CAMP!

mood: satisfied

Hooray, i just created a livejournal account!

Today was my Chinese 'O' level Paper!!! Overall, it was great! Thank God for that.

I almost freaked out when i saw the questions of paper 1 and my hands were trembling!

But then, i believe my grades is in His hands. So i prayed, and soon after, i could generate some ideas pretty well.

Okay, so while writing this blog entry, i got a phone call from my chinese tutor, he told me that  my freaking format was wrong! So i guess i flunk my Paper 1?

Shucks..

Although i still insist that i didn't cause, i can't accept the fact!

But i still believe my GOOD grades is in Gods' hands. So i believe i didn't flunk it but, i did well for it!

And i'm super happy!! The first burden off my shoulders! Next up, studying super hard for the coming 'O' level examinations! Gogogo!

I'm addicted to David Cook's songs.